“Fanaa”

Beautiful, Touching, Romantic Music – after a long time.

    "Rone de aaj humko tu ankhen sujane de,

    bahoon mein le le aur khud ko bheeg jane de,

    hein jo seene mein kaid dariya wo chhoot jayenga,

    hein itna dard ki tera daman bheeg jayenga."

    "Adhoori saans thi, dhadkan adhoori thi, adhoore hum,

    magar ab chand poora hein falak pe, aur ab poore hein hum."

My Fav Songs :: 1. Chaand sifarish jo ka karta hamari — Shaan

                            2. Tere haath mein mera haath ho — Sonu Nigam

:: A couple of Imagery ::

My Current Work Space :: (Booty provoked me to do this … here) also the previous desktops here and here

and the most beautiful rainbow I have ever seen ……

..adios

I am in Love with 7.*

When I joined IIIT, I was 110% sure that I was the dumbest guy around, with time I almost proved myself by getting one of the 2 Ds in Maths 1 (the other one was Rao, Rao we rock) and overall GPA of 6.3 in first sem. During the interaction period I did some information extraction and found out that most (90+%) ppl in my batch or even in other batches have cleared JEE-Screening quite succesfully and had good ranks in JEE-Mains. For me it was simple, a rank of 32,288 in the screening so no point in further explaining the point I m tryin to convey here.

With time I started feeling that I wont be getting a job what so ever. I dont even remember how I passed my first semester with minimum preps and ofcourse things like Dilip's presence on the seat behind mine and courses like Physics which were nothing but the walking talking justification of "History repeats itself". The only use of keyboard to me before coming to IIIT was the keys to operate Prince of Persia which was the only thing I did in my Comp labs at my school St. Jude's. So with the above information I cud easily convince myself that I had no scope in Maths, English, C Programming and nething which had ANYthing in common with JEE Entrance Syllabi. I was never a genius, its like either u are or you are not, and belive me we (non-genius ) ppl can trace the other category quite well. So I did not know wat is going to solve my problem of getting a job or a CGPA.

I still dont know when I actually started riting exams with the aim of scoring gud marks or actually passing them in a way that my GPA only gets better. Now one of the benefits of scoring a 6 pointer in the first semester is that u will have a stedy increment in your CGPA, no matter how hard you try to keep it the same or lower it. Thats wat happened and suddenly at the end of third sem I found myself with a GPA of 7.21. I was freaked out, I never thought that cud happen and it gave me a desire for scoring an 8 in one of the coming sem, I did that in 5th sem and said myself to look for a 8 CGPA at the end of my B.Tech. Till last sem I was working hard at it, I went against my birth rights of not doing something which doesnt interest me, and took 2 HSSMs this sem, but my Love of being a 7 pointer shattered me today ……

I dont want to be an 8, i really dont. Its like I will loose my identity of an average guy who is not expected to do anything gr8 or similar. Now the whole problem is I dont know how much I can control the situation. Its like one of those crazy decisions you take. My current GPA is 7.88 and with 2 HSSMs, a PCO (NA), project worth 6 credits and Computational Geometry I cant predict anything. Only thing I wish at the end of my B.Tech is that next year I have a 7.* on my CV.
adios

I am Happy !!!

no I m not, for him i.e. smr becos of this…..

actually if u ask the bastard inside me, I m happy , its this kind of happiness u get from finding someone in the same curry as u are in …. and ofcourse its the bad kind of curry … yeah I m not the perfect being……ok lets take things in reverse order ……

so after Beering last nite and disclosing one of the secrets I was building lately to my dearest pals…..I was off to bed, one of the not so good things associated with drinking is, I wake up before sharath yeah the guy who has 5 calls from US universities, so here I am walking like an idiot in my wing at 7:15, I really tried hard to find some sleep but waste…I also had a bit of headache, thnks shiben for that extra stick…… now finally sharath wakes up at 7:30 and so one of my bad feelings abt waking up b4 him is gone ….. I m trying hard to do something other than looking at Yahoo messenger and oh yess……juniors gave some CD thing …. chalo lets watch that …… hmmm in 5 mins I was done with that ….. thnks guys I really found some important pics in there ….

Now the thought of having a blog struck me from smwhere…..I was disappointed …. I really wanted to write all these days , it was so much fun chaa…..will do that …. the whole day goes to blogging….but that later….. yeah so this feeling of writing starts hurting me and I run away from the computer and off to mess…… I wud say the same thing said by the GurU

" I didnt use to be with blank mind like this ever before. I am no more able to make opinions. I have become a silent observer. No matter how things are moving around, they matter so less to me. Nothing hurts anymore, and nothings overwhelms me anymore. I wanted to be like this. But i fear it." — smr

I fear it too ….. but then didnt I wish to be like this ….

Its just that life needs a bit of change …. I guess I have to be more serious about some things (they are the least imp but still) and yes ofcourse I have to remember the reason for deciding on those things ….

another reason for me is … yes the readers….. I mean not in the sense of expectation … but then there are things which wont interest ppl and along with that they are nuthing but a mention of my stupid daily activities …. so yes I m starting on passwd protected posting today on …..

All in all …. smr is the saviour yet another time ….. Yes Lets Blog becos its the only Diary ….. and may be becos its only passion at times for me ……

going on a blog spree…..

adios