Single & Looking – Part I

There is no point taking life too seriously, you are never going to come out of it alive anyways.

The day had to arrive but I was a good procrastinator I thought we were still together, but I was wrong as always. I dont think the climax of my Luv Life is worth more than 2 lines, yes I m angry, infact not at all.

So I m not gonna write nething abt wat happened in my life rather will write something which I feel is more important. This post goes into max number of categories, first of all in Love yeah becos this is the end, Me-8-IIIT I dont know y I have included this just becos everything for last 4 years and for next year and a half is connected with IIIT, College Special, although fked its still special, Not-Lovable, I created this one in Nov/Dec I dont remember and finally into a new category for which this is the first post, Philosophy. Yeah I like Philosophy, specially my own.

So wats important, rather wats more important than the only Luv Life I had, hmmm. Every single day in my life I only had one thing to achieve, Happiness of the Day. Seems to be philosophical, becos it is, and thats wat I tried to do all my school life and I guess in my College too. Actually it all comes from my parents specially mother, when I used to leave for school (School Bus, then Bicycle and then Bike) there was not a single day when she did not come out at the door to tell me the same thing which I was hearing for all these days I had been going to the school, Dhyan se rehna, khoob masti karna. I guess I did take that seriously and went ahead with that. When I came across Osho stuff thru U know who, I could clearly see what my mom told me was same as Live in the moment. Be Alert, and thats why I liked it more. So I guess my Happiness is the most important thing to me in all world along with my parents. I know I know, U mite think it all changed with a single break up but believe me I never changed my priorities. I have stayed with it (happiness) longer than I did with my gf…oops x-gf. ok read this then I will tell u smthing more….

Happiness is always herenow. It belongs to the present. Now say to the mind: “I am not worried about the future at all because if I can be happy now, this moment, I can be happy forever. The future never comes as future, it always comes as the present. Now I know the secret of being happy in the present, so why bother about the future? Tomorrow will not be tomorrow, it will come as today. And I have the key to open the door. This moment I am happy; I know how to be happy in this moment. All moments that will come will come always like this moment.
- Osho

Yes, Its always here. Ok by this time there wud be a good number of ppl trying to differ on the idea of Happiness mentioned in the above couple of paras. They feel this is a temporary state of a looser dumped person like me but believe me its not, neither its temporary, becos Its always here.

When I look back at my footmarks, I c, I am at a similar stage as I was in High School i.e. arnd Class 10th and a year from then. Less things on Mind, Things I know about, Yes yes yes, U shud have a very clear idea of what you are going to deal with, Good Friends, yes they matter, the only difference in this category is, I used to stop my school friends on some things then and now I see my friends doing that to me not exactly stop but you know wat, enjoying the work (actual work, hello remember we are here for our Undergraduation Husshh yeah I know its hard but u got to do it ) I loved my studies then and now too, Single, yeah thats important.

I guess in last couple of months my life has taken another good amount of turn, I seem to be looking forward to a lot of things I never thought about like my carrer aka JOB which gives Money, planning how to spend my life, The Learning Process, Partying,yes I was never a party person and similar ones. Not that all these come from the shock :O of being dumped but rather from the experience of last couple of months, I hate that period from 22nd Nov (My Bday) to 13th Feb. I cant hate her, just becos I cant hate neone, but its just that I dont like being sad and wasting my time thinking abt something which is making me think more than I want to think about it and believe me later is worse. I definately learned that Thinking is Injurious, no one ever made a good decision just becos he/she thought a lot. Go with your instincts as long as u believe in the idea of Not regretting abt the past. According to me a decently smart decision is the easiest phase of dealing with any situation becos the suffering is still to come.

I dont like writing long posts, so I wud rather split this into 2 or may be more….

atlast to say I am Happy and yeah ofcourse Single and Looking……adios