Dream Job….

Parents were invented to make children happy by giving them something to ignore.
– Ogden Nash

Last nite I had a very comforting talk with Deep. I still cant believe that we had all that in common, neways I m so thnkful abt the talk. The news of the day was “Mani got into Sarnoff … Hooorrraayyyy” damn it Best job, Best pay 6.6 L perannum wat else a B.Tech. Graduate wants. So we went for a ice-cream treat at ice n spice….I m so happy for Mani …. he is a gem man and no one can stop him from reaching at top or rather where ever he wants to go becos he does not want to achieve more than a threshold. Me too have similar philosophy so will settle down after my MS i.e. next year hopefully.
I have carefully planned how I m going to spend my time from Jan onwards as the next one year is going to be very crucial. I have noted down the names of some books I want to buy as soon as I get some money.

Well Looking forward to a decent holiday if not good…..my frnds will have their last exam on 29th so its just those 2 days we gonna party hard….30th and 31st but then it seems like they are planning for a trip in Jan to Goa but thats still in waiting … got to finalize that asap…..for time being just want to go home … want to see some familiar faces, thats all I have got into my mind …I was supposed to do the assignment on Computation Geometry but my brain has attained stagnation … I hope I will be fine after the holidays……
Well ciao ….

I waited….

…….and I was devastated ….

dev·as·tate ( P ) Pronunciation Key

tr.v. dev·as·tat·ed, dev·as·tat·ing, dev·as·tates

1. To lay waste; destroy.
2. To overwhelm; confound; stun: was devastated by the rude remark

That bold text says it all …

Life was never this hard to figure out, atleast for me. I never thought I will have to sit back and think why I ever did that, becos I completely believe in my inspiration’s philosophy of Never Questioning ur Past. Last nite was horrible, I never expected her to behave tht way, YES DAMN IT I AGREEEE THAT I DID NOT CALL ON TIME YESS YESSS FOR LIKE 2 WEEKS but U cant do that to neone. The worst things were worse than I can ever think to do, but she did that. I never thought I can ever hate neone on this damn earth, I had so many problems with frnds in school and here in college but I always try to fill in, becos I know wat my mistakes were and damn it I know the other person shud not feel bad and I always tried to make up for my mistakes, but today I think I cant hate neone more than her. All the things we talked abt for last 2 weeks are those which I cant stand but still I so much wanted her back but I failed and here I m thinking this is the best thing ever happened to me. Yes this is the transformed mind talking and u know wat I will never want to go back to my old mindset, I dont give a damn abt nething we had together.

12th December, It was samina’s b’day yesterday and so much wanted to call her but was waiting for her call all the time. On 22nd Nov I had my 22nd B’day, I felt that I got some frnds for life on that day I was so happy and to add reduce from it there she was with the damn statement Dont keep a lot of hope wow thnks for all that.

Earlier I had to put in some effort to behave as if nuthing happened but this time I m so fkin pissed forget it …..

I left this post in middle last nite at this place … I dont want to rite nemore….

Life is Like that…..

ciao

I m waiting……..

…….so U too wait …… till midnite

Was Never so desperate…..

to go home….I always knew I m the kinda person who cries while wacthing silliest of Hindi movies with down to earth sentiments…and people who do that are definately the ones who need to be loved and cared, I m just feeling to be with some one. I will be going home next sunday, I so much wanted to meet her before going home but she has not left ne chance for that…..

Watched Cinderella Man and Swadesh, both were awesome. Swadesh was just the movie where SRK takes u with him and same perfectly same is for Cinderella man where Russell Crowe makes u doubt abt ur fav Holly actor(although he is my fav Hollywood Actor). Today it was the second weekend of the placement session and IBM turned out to be the Mass recruiter for this season although I m felling so very bad abt Ayan, its just with his luck and I still know he will get much better than IBM AMS. Neways more than half the batch is placed now. We went to eat out today, I m still waiting for the Dark room party may be next week is the time.

I got to start concentrating on the project and courses from tom. I want to start fresh when I come back after the break but that wud be possible only when I talk to her and I dont see a chance of that happening. I dont know what will I do back home …. Although it will be just 10 days I get bored within first 3 days that is becos my frnds will be having exams till 31st, so we mite have hardcore NewYearParty but then I got to wait for it.

Before riting this line I was just staring at the monitor for like 10 mins ….. Its just her……I dont know wat to do …..

I m hurt….

I agree with the following person ::

I am not in this world to live up to other people’s expectations, nor do I feel that the world must live up to mine.
– Fritz Perls

So, Life is Like that,

There are somethings Money cant buy, like Bullshit,

For things like that there are ppl like Me.

I called her today but I dont know if I m doing rite(calling her everyday). It gets unarguable if u make a mistake. Everything has two meanings then on. for e.g. If I tell her I did not call as I felt she found it not so important and kinda a obstruction in her smooth going life, she mite think thats just another excuse out of the trillions I made or nething so absurd which mite have not even have a meaning but still it can be said by her becos I m the one who made the fkin mistake…….I decided I will stick to what I thought abt earning the Love back…..but then Y is she making me feel like its all fine now … although its not and the worse is I m not the kinda person who can keep cool for like more than 2 days (thats enuf), Everything has a counterpart I hope she does not read this but in case she does….she can straight forward make a comment that it was not 2 days but 2 months for her or a similar one…..which is absolutely crap…..its not same damn it…. The biggest problem is I get crazy when I m ignored even after I make it crystal clear that I accept wat i did was wrong….This problem statement is followed by Whats so new abt that U always do that and confess abt it One is speechless after such statements becos YES damn it he agrees on that but it does not get into the head of other….

OR in substitution to the above piece of idea One can just think that He is completely Doomed and there is no hope wat so ever he feels abt the other person.

The real problem …. what the hell one shud do in such a situation??…. look again the same problem…. she wud say Dont u think I wud have asked myself the same question hundreds of times…??

:O I m sry that I thought of giving it a try ….. I m sry that I wanted to make up for my mistakes. I m sry that I m wat I m and thats why I want to believe in the above quotation.

Life is Like that, Its not that I m not bothered its that I cant stand that smthing is bothering me.

— Suryakant

Well I guess I just made a medium level quote….Now another interesting part. An innocent looking creature who does not know me if reads this post he/she will definately think that this is my frustration speaking and not me. Well its not the case I m not frustrated its just that I m hurt…